"Not Me!' Monday

So, I haven't really participated in "Not Me!' Monday lately, so I thought that I would give it a try.... (and I apologize if they really are not quite as fun as usual...)

Well, this past week, I didn't not eat everything in sight, hoping that filling my stomach might make me forget the events of the past week, and now feel completely guilty now that I have gotten back on the scale! Nope... not me!

I also did not have so much fun on Friday night when I was out with my family for my cousins birthday that I wanted to stay out longer, just to avoid going to bed, because nighttime is my least favorite time of the day... nope, not me!

Ok, here is a brighter one.... I most certainly did not take my 7, almost 8 year old, nephew's Nintendo DS and play it all day yesterday at my mom's house because I am completely addicted to that pet game! Seriously... not me!

I most definitely have not vowed to start back on my diet today, and plan on going

back to weight watcher's, all the while, not wanting to go into my kitchen and finish eating my Reese's Pieces that are calling my name! Nope... not me!

Also, I most definitely am not such a pushover, that I am still giving my 17 month old daughter a bottle, even though I know that she doesn't need it, and should not be having it! Seriously... what kind of mother do you think I am??? Nope... not me!

And... I also do not think it is sooooo cute when my little girl comes up to me, while I am putting on lip gloss, and stands there puckering her lips, waiting for me to put it on her too! Seriously... not me!~

Oh... and on Saturday, while at a baby shower, I most certainly did not teach my daughter how to play with the water fountain, just to keep her happy when she was starting to get cranky. And... she most definitely did not love it! Nope... not me!

Ok... so I did not sit, most of the morning, just renewing MckMama's blog, just so I could be one of the early entries in the "Not Me!" Monday ritual that we all have come to love and adore. Nope... not me!

I also most certainly did not put the movie Sleeping Beauty in, just to apppease my daughter while I was not doing the aforementioned renewing! Nope... not me!

Oh, and I am most certainly, 100% definitely not going to add this shameless plug to my blog, just because I want to have more than 3 followers(whom... you know who you 3 are, and I love you very much!)... but, if you want to follow me, you can see the link on the side of my page, and become a follower! Or not... it really is not that big of a deal! :) Not! So... even though National De-lurking week is over... you can still become a follower... or, like I said, not become a follower... it is up to you. No pressure! :)

Well, if I can think of some more, I will post them later! or Not!

Precious!

If this face does not make me feel better, I seriously don't know what could! Thank God for this precious little girl, that shows me that things aren't always as bad as they might seem. Look at that one little tear. Seriously... how did I get such a beautiful baby! Her dad is pretty handsome! :)

Day 10- January 10th

So... I have to say, this is probably my very favorite picture I have ever take of Grace, thus far!

Day 9-January 9th

My daughter never ceases to amaze me... for months, all I have wanted was for my daughter to let me put her in the play pen, for just 10 minutes a day, so I can have a nice hot shower, but she would scream her lungs off. I mean seriously... she would lose it. Well, somehow, now she will actually tolerate it for longer lengths of time. Where did this child come from... she is hilarious! And... a good sport... look at those cute piggy tails! Isn't she a doll?

Nigthtime...

Why is it, that when it is time for bed... I am ready to go to sleep, but of course, that is when my minds gets going. I just can't turn it off. I have found that since things started happening last Friday, nighttime is when I have the hardest time. I just start thinking about everything, and just really can't turn my thoughts off. I wish there were an on and off button, just so that I can get a restful sleep.

There are a lot of things that I want to write here, but I am having a really hard time putting it into words in this post. I am just remembering that a little over a week ago, I went to bed on New Year's day, feeling pregnant, happy, and anticipating the coming year, imagining what our new little bundle of joy would add to our family. Picturing the day, in another hot August afternoon, that we would make the drive home to bring home our little baby Mc. Boy or girl(of course, secretly, I was really wishing for a girl....), we would bring them into our house, and introduce Grace to her new brother or sister. And now... one week later, I am being forced to see reality. However...

I still have that picture in my head... of course. I am not letting go of that dream. I am not going to be afraid to try again. I am not going to let my fears get the better of me.

As my dear "Phat Girlz" like to remind me, God is good, all the time... and I know that I will be a momma again, Doug will be a daddy, and Gracie will be the best big sister ever!

So... I am going to try to get back to bed. Right now... my time it is 12:10 am. Physically, I am tired, but mentally... I am anything but tired. I am going to try though. Here goes nothing... Good night. :)

Today is here...

So, just as I predicted... the sun(even if it might be behind some snowy clouds) came up today. What a blessing... I am in a good place today. Today is a new start. I am not going to say that I am not going to still be sad from time to time, but today... is a good day. Gracie is going to go and hang out with her Grandma and Grandpa, and I am going to be hanging out with my girls(Mom, Best Friend, Auntie Cathy, Cousin Crystal, and the Birthday Girl... miss 13... Abby-doll! :) Should be a fun time. We are going to see the movie Bride Wars, and I just can't wait. YEAH! :)

Hope all my dear blogging friends have a wonderful day! Stay warm!

Love hugs and kisses! :)

Day 8-January 8th

Ok, so... there are three pics this time... this is my challenge... so I make the rules! :)

This is Gracie's newest thing she loves to do... while I am on the computer, she will go into the kitchen, open up the corner cabinet and get out every single spice that I have down there, and bring them to me. So.. by the end, I have a desk full of "stuff". She is hilarious. :)

Look at those cheeks... dontcha just wanna kiss her?

And those hands... one day, so help me, she will play the piano! :)