Anxiety Attack...

Ok, so here is the deal, I hate the phone. I mean... I really hate the telephone. I believe that it started when I was a manager at Lane Bryant years ago, and I hated the phone because it usually was someone calling to tell me that I had to come in because someone had called in. I hated that! It was the worst. So then, it evolved into a thing where, it was just the phone in general. When I was working at Trinity, I had to deal with clients all day long, and some days, the sound of the phone was all I heard. It was very frustrating. Anyway, why am I telling you all of this, because I had to call the mother of the bride that dumped me for a "professional" wedding photographer and leave a message. I have been dreading this call, because the last time that I talked to this woman, I was upset and basically made her feel like dirt because her daughter made a huge mistake. Why would someone pay 3 to 4 times the amount for wedding pics when she had someone to do the pics, who probably has the same experience, if not more, than the next guy. I am very hurt over this. It has been weighing on my mind terribly the last few weeks. So... the reason that I was calling her was because she offered to pay me the same amount to do the wedding video, which basically, I should have called her right back and told her yes, because the video is so much easier to do than the pictures, but I just couldn't bring myself to do this. It is probably because I feel like I made an idiot out of myself the last time I talked to her, but I was so crushed. I had never had anything like that happen before and my heart felt like it was stomped on. Weddings are very personal to me... they are like my very own, I would do anything out of my way, to help the bride, or just make my self useful that day. Anyway... I am waiting on a call back. We will see what happens!